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I feel nostalgic and I want a hug. And now I am going to bed. Oyasumi! おやすみ。:)
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What a short and pointless entry. 仕方がない...

It's has been some pretty busy days, weeks(!), lately. I've been studying my ass off for the Kanji test which took place today and I am content enough to say that, as long as I did not make some careless mistakes, it went quite well. I hope my sensei is not to nit-pick about a stroke being toooooooo short compared to another one. She can be quite a complainer at times. I tried to keep calm before the test, telling myself that I've learned enough for it - which is often too much, but better too much than too little, right? Sometimes it's quite difficult to remain calm when there's a thick, persistent cloud of despair around you. Still, it's totally understandable and I often feel the same way, too. Just take a presentation, for example. I'm all nervous and fidgety long before and even more so when there are just several minutes seperating me from those presentations of doom. It's either fight or flight. Unfortunately, flight is no option and I kind of don't want to fight against a horde of unarmed people who are known as my class mates. It would reflect badly on my humble self. So, my survival mode is confined to keep my trembling in check. On a random note, my next presentation is more than a month away and on a saturday. I can't wait to start a weekend with a presentation, hehe... he..... he..... ughs. At least I am already fully aware of my topic because it's what I wrote my homework about. All the presentations will be about the homework we did at the beginning of this year. And since my teacher had almost nothing to complain about it, I am at least happy about the information I carried together. They are the basis for my presentation after all. But more important than the content itself is the way you present your topic and yourself. And that's exactly my problem, with all the trembling and so on. I try to give my best, can't do more than that anyway.

Yeah, so... I read through Johannes Cabal - the Necromancer again, still thinking that it's the best book I have ever read (together with The Lord of the Rings - if you take away the boring beginning of the first book, I am really no fan of Bilbo's). Unfortunately the second book is coming out in September (or was it October?) in Germany and that's. Way. Too. Long. Though, I recently found out that three books I am eagerly waiting for, including the former mentioned one, are coming out in autumn. So much to read, so little time. Time flies by so fast. I am almost 20. It's like already having one's foot in the grave. Creepy.

Somehow, it's been a long, long time since my last entry but maybe it's just my imagination. University is screwing with your inner clock. Everything seems to go by so slow and yet so fast. Paradoxical, I know. But that's how university is. It's already May, the first month of roughly four is done - semesters are just so damn short. Still, everything I did yesterday, all the events, everything that happened feels like an eternity. I assume this institution called university is a nut house for your time comprehension - and your mind all over. I guess it's because they demand so much of you that you can't cope with everything within merely 24 hours. Nice. Seriously, Japanese isn't going to be easier once you entered the "second stage". God damn, Japanese are all masochists regarding these kanji. It takes longer and longer to memorize every single one of them. And I don't wanna start ranting about the grammar. But don't misunderstand me, I still and will always love Japanese. Or else I would hardly cope with all of it and try to do as much as I can. There are no weekends anymore. What's a weekend? Free time? No! Just more time to study.
Nonetheless, I love university because I am already so Japanese that I love to study so much. It's not fun if it's not work.

P.S.: I felt like writing, so this entry was born.
何か書きたいから、このエントリが生まれた。

Today was such a brilliant day. Even though it was slightly too windy outside for my and my skirt's taste, I felt brilliant. 気分がよかった。
I indulged in reminiscences 'cause I was reading some old jokes and articles from my gymnasial (former school) time. I couldn't stop giggling at my teacher's lines. They were hilarious. Some of them are real treasures of nonsense, sarcasm and pure loss of authority. I am totally content with my university life and friends here (*hugs them*) but if my old friends and some teachers from my old school were at my university here in Hamburg, it would be the best life ever. At some point, I couldn't stop laughing about the old time causing my friends to look at me in a surprised way. Luckily, when I laugh, I, most of the time, cause them to laugh, too. Because I am just that cool. (Oh look, snow there 'cause I am so cool!) Guess we entertain all the other students around us with our strange behaviour, kesese. Aaaaand, another thing to be happy about is the very good feed-back from my teacher to my report about the beginnings of Christianity in Japan. The whole time, I was like "Please, don't let it be so damn bad that I have to re-write the WHOLE damn thing!". But according to his feed-back, it was a good to very good report and I only have to correct some of the footnotes and book references (and add that Endô was Christian himself to stress his argument but that's too random for this entry - and I don't want to go into detail about my report). :D
Plus, this weekend is going to be more awesome than all my past weekends together because my best friend came back from Japan. After 7-8 months! Time to see and hug her again. Looking forward to it. Today, I am happy - and the total opposite of yesterday and the day prior.

So I watched the first episode of the fourth and final season of Tudors yesterday evening and it was intense, wonderful and foreboding. Catherine Howard, even as queen, really acted her age, which is only 17 and King Henry VIII.,some decades older, is more than amused by this. I wonder if this is really love or just a sex involved help for him to overcome Jane's (his former wife) death - the only woman he did not want to see dead. After all, his sixth woman will be way more mature (and will be the only one who, in the beginning, is not so keen on marrying his majesty).I missed Sir Francis Bryan this episode but maybe it was just me being totally blind. And, of course, I would have loved to see Thomas Cromwell 'cause this guy really grew to me. But well, the dead can't return, huh? And even if they could... without head due to beheading? No, rather not. They introduced a new character in this season who will play a great role in the development of Catherine's and Henry's still young relationship: Thomas Culpeper. When I first saw him, I was like "Oh, a nice, handsome, maybe a little bit shy guy who has fallen for Catherine.", but when I saw him commanding his group of friends, raping a woman whose man wasn't around at that moment just because he really needed it and later on killed said man with cold eyes, I was all "Wow, what a bastard. Great character! That's going to be interesting, hehe."

But, so much to The Tudors. I have a slight headache since yesterday morning and I hope it'll disappear soon. I have to make myself presentable for uni now, so I'll be off. It's gonna be a long day.

Yes, the fourth and final Tudors season starts airing today evening in America. Can't wait to watch it on my laptop (with subtitle though). Will watch the third episode of the third season on DVD now. It's a nice rest after playing Bioshock for hours. Played the game from the beginning to the point where I stopped the first time - but this time without killing my beloved crazy Sander Cohen. :D